retail therapy?

I work at a retail giant for a living. Its not what i want to do but its what pays the bills. If i could i would paint for a living but who makes money that way? Certainly not me. I don't even know how you go about getting noticed for things like that all i know is i love to paint. I love to put my whole energy into it and usually when I'm done even if i don't like what i painted i still loved the process. I love the smell and the feel of the brush strokes. I'm a big freak i know.
But sadly as most artistic people do I have to have a regular job too. I did go to college and study to be a teacher but I couldn't keep interest long enough to finish. Blah.. wish i went for something i liked but i didn't even really know what i like for sure till a few years ago. 18 is not the right age to pick what you want to do for the rest of your life.. and now college isn't really an option. Sure I could go back but I gotta make a living too...
Maybe eventually I'll be able to go back. I want to go for computer aided drafting I think. Something I wouldn't be so burnt out on. Who wants to work in retail for the rest of their life? I don't know anyone.
I still have a happy life now.I have a very supportive fiancée and a home and food.  If going to work somewhere I dislike is the worst thing I have to now ..so be it ! Much better than the shit I used to have to deal with on a daily basis .
At least it is just at work I feel upset and most of the time I don't mind. There are some good people I work with. I have made some good friends. Its just the damn customers lol. That and being treated like you don't matter and what you do doesn't make a difference because they could just hire someone else to do the same thing. Doesn't mean they need to treat you that way. And by the way a ten cent raise for a whole year of me busting my ass?NOT COOL!! Its kind of a slap in the fucking face!

But I digress.... anyone who works in retail knows how i feel. It a very thankless job. People treat you like you are their door mats. They look at you like that too. They disrespect every ounce of your being. Its pretty sadistic actually. They think that since they have a better job as a fucking secretary ( no thank u ) that they can be all condescending. Sorry you think you are better than me but guess what? your not!!!


And that reminds me ...IF one more person asks me if the tattoo on my chest hurt..i might kill them....